only use half of it
March 22, 2003-9:58 pm
it doesn.t hurt you and that hurts me even more
[maybe i should hate you for this]
if you say anything i won.t reply please accept that i can barely read what you type because everything is blurry from the tears
[if i told you this was killing me would you stop]
i won.t forgive you i tried that already and you hurt me again and i can.t be your victim any longer
i can.t believe i consider myself your victim
you wouldn.t believe it either
[keep on talking just keep on rambling]
i.m sick of sleeping on my wet pillow and stifling my sobs in the night so no one knows how i feel
i.m sick of wearing my mask of happiness and having no one know that i hate everything
its all your fault
[some things are better left unsaid]
i.ll see you and tell you everything that i feel about you and you will hate me for it but you don.t have to tell me you hate me because i know you do without you saying it
[i know you well enough to know you never loved me]