slept over at somebodys house
November 02, 2003-2:34 pm
730 is such a big number. thats how many days ill spend thinking of nothing but you. thats how many times ill fall asleep alone wishing you could be with me. thats how much of my life im going to waste being lonely and sad and scared. it seems like the world is taking that two years away from me, like i dont deserve to be happy for that long. it seems kind of unfair. okay, really really unfair. i dont want to think about it but i cant stop. miraculously, i didnt cry at ali's house last night or this morning, and somehow im not crying right now. but i do think its strange that you and i were both thinking of that number this morning.
my hamster died this morning.