i just want back in your head
September 06, 2010-12:08 am

i guess the biggest thing is that i'm just so confused. all i hear is doors opening and closing and it feels like a kick in the heart every time. i don't know how to act like i don't feel this way. every once in a while i wonder what he would have said about this and why don't i even wonder anymore, wonder at all the things they said and did and did you know i miss you? (it's always you in my big dreams) there is a time when you feel everything and the trick i think is to know what everything means.

i just feel so overwhelmed all the time and i don't think i will ever get to where i want to be.

we paint our sins on the ceiling, i keep them glued to my chest - it keeps me close like a promise kept (say yes say yes say yes say yes) if i talk in my sleep would you just keep trying, i might give it up if you just keep trying, if i talk in my sleep, if i talk in my sleep its on - i'm sorry it took me so long (say yes say yes say yes say yes) im sorry it took me so - so pace the stairs to your apartment like it's where you want to be i don't understand, i just want to know where you want to be

these are just fucking words.

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