cludding around
October 17, 2010-10:15 pm

i miss you, i miss you so much. [[ohio you're killing me]]

it feels like forever since we've been able to just talk, freely, no awkward silence and wondering what to say - remember how it used to be so easy? it's been so long since i heard that pretty voice i am still listening even if you're not speaking. this is not so sad as it sounds - this is all just a promise to us both. i hope you are reading it and i hope you are as excited as i am. there are no words, but there is understanding [[ohio you're breaking me]] i feel like even to scream at the top of my lungs would not be enough for this feeling. you make me feel so much.

i am never going to give up on this, love. even with him i never felt like anyone was so important, so perfect. do you think i am building you up? you're already higher than i could've imagined. i just...you know everything i want is in you. sometimes the very things keeping me together are also tearing me apart. i try to look at the bright side of all of this - love, love, love. i feel God in you.

ohio you're saving me

suicide - October 13, 2016
i wish i was dead - October 13, 2016
i could have written more, but you dont know what to listen for - October 12, 2016
ctrl+heartbeat - October 11, 2016
i dont even care - October 08, 2016


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