for jake, forever
March 04, 2012-10:22 pm

you are new with the promise of a love youll probably never find, and a touch that you cant really feel

all the nights i spent changing over and over, i forgot to remember that you were doing the same. maybe we headed in opposite directions. maybe i dont know who you are. we live parallel in this world - two lines never meant to cross paths. but i know that you hear the same songs, watch the same tv stations, look at the same sun. do you think about me?

i never coped; i never healed. first love makes an impression that grows stronger with time and no one will ever measure up. i am always disappointed. i want him to be you. i want you. i want him. i want you.

tonight the snow is falling but the world is warm, so that nothing sticks to the ground except the light. everything is reflective. i am reflective. youre so beautiful.

theres nothing more i want than just one night thats free of doubt and sadness

i guess im trying to say that i will always be in love with you, whoever you were and whoever i was. we dont exist anymore except in my heart and in yours.

this is a cry for help.

suicide - October 13, 2016
i wish i was dead - October 13, 2016
i could have written more, but you dont know what to listen for - October 12, 2016
ctrl+heartbeat - October 11, 2016
i dont even care - October 08, 2016


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