probably ought to go to bed
May 07, 2012-6:51 am
am i too eager to speed everything up? i dont think i will ever be satisfied
perhaps someday, if we are married, then i will be happy. but it is true that no matter how committed anyone was to me, it was never enough. so why do i think there even is an "enough"? maybe i am just one of those people who always needs more. maybe there is no happiness for me. this all sounds kind of pessimistic, i suppose. but in reality i am the most hopeful person i know. that may be my downfall.
but he loves when i leave my panties on his floor and mostly, we take care of each other. i think theres going to be a lot more trouble before anything can be calm, but when he smiles at me i know he is worth the time. i hope you are not too fucked up, because i really just want it to be you. i want to make you happy.