honesty
July 17, 2012-10:14 pm
sometimes, i make decisions i know are bad, because i think with my heart and not my head. i am right in the midst of planning out a terrible decision, one which will affect me financially and morally, and yet i am ploughing on ahead because i dont know, i guess because i am greedy and selfish and i want to enjoy my summer and i want the universe to bend around me and i want to be catered to and i want things my way
and i dont give a shit about it at all
i am stubbornly ignoring the consequences, and should they arise, i will probably take advantage of anyone around me who i think can be manipulated into helping me. i dig my hole, and i tell others to fill it in for me. and i bury this guilt where no one will ever have to see it, including myself
and through all this, i have the nerve to believe i am a good person