am I (29f) punishing my bf (24m) for what my ex did to me?
June 09, 2017-3:27 pm
you've never done anything wrong. you've never done anything wrong to me. you don't deserve to hold my bags. you don't deserve to lick my wounds.
yet here we are.
i can't seem to forget. i try so hard to keep this part of myself away from you. i try so hard to clamp my hands around my shattered core to hold myself together. i keep hoping if i squeeze myself tight enough i can fuse myself back together. if i squeeze tight enough maybe i can become a diamond.
how much time should it take?
how do you measure progress?
im just a mess of carbon thats been swept into a pile, hoping something will come along and press me into something useful before i blow away in the wind.
if you knew, youd do it happily. but how do i even begin to tell you? i can barely explain my feelings to myself.