RT if you feel fundamentally disconnected from most of humanity
March 24, 2013-10:32 pm
honesty time. i am fucking terrified, every second of every day, that i will never get married and have a family. i've felt this desperate need to be with someone, to be committed and tied to them for the rest of my life for as long as i can remember. i'm sure this is a product of losing my parents so young - i missed out on that relationship and am needing to compensate. but i fear that it is precisely the nature of this desire which will prevent me from finding that person. no one wants someone who needs them. no one wants some sad, desperate girl, someone so pathetically needy that they would settle for anyone, right this second, anyone who will promise to love her, anyone at all, [[please]] no one wants this girl.and part of me tries to be rational - i am not even 25, there is so much time, too much time left, yet every day feels like failure, one more day that people around me get engaged, get married, get pregnant, one more day that i have just spent alone and lonely
and i wonder, does anyone feel this way too? i ask that selfishly
and you, please break my heart
it is so obvious at times, but i need you so badly to feel this way too, i dont believe that you do, i dont believe that you will
mostly i just wonder, how does anyone find anyone else? and how, once they are found, do you let them know that they are everything
[beard fucker]