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this was a big waste of space
June 28, 2003-1:13 am

its freezing and dark and there is nothing here for me to do. but i cant bring myself to get up and walk the few meters to my bed, because i want to hold on to this feeling forever. you know, the feeling of losing everything and getting it back almost right away?

the same feeling from only a few nights ago, only it was a different person. i know which one i prefer, its the one i can have. the one i almost lost.

i cant even think properly, i cant save this many people at once. my arms arent as strong as they need to be to hold us all up.

i just want to hold on to this feeling forever.

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