yellow guys. you put em with the blue guys.
October 09, 2003-8:59 pm
today was good. i saw you. not enough, but some, and that'll keep me going. no fights in the house, no people yelling, no bad gossip. today was the first day in a long time that i felt like i was wanted, like anyone even noticed i was there. hell, i talked to carson in social. yeah, im a real rebel. but it was good. i made people laugh. i didnt do anything stupid. i just was myself and no one seemed to hate that. its something to think about, i guess. bye the way, i miss you. my favorite part of the day is always the same thing, lunch. cause your there, for more than a second. i dont know. i love holding your hand and showing you off. your so beautiful. arg. i cant even think about cheryl anymore cause you take up all the room in my head. haha.