more speed
December 08, 2003-9:26 pm
alright id just like to say that im a bitch, theres no way to get around it. i think i need to stop telling people what im thinking cause im being a bitch to ali and i dont even feel bad. somethings gone wrong with me, i dont feel anything anymore except when im with you. i have two emotions: overwhelming love and indifference. im saying things i never thought i would and i cant even feel this. i am, effectively, numb. and i cant wait to see you tomorrow cause i miss your lips and the way you look and i got your xmas present tonight and i hope you like it and i love you etc (we never ran away)
my thoughts are so scattered and i wish i could take this whole conversation back from ali cause i dont want it to exist. (for a really selfish reason)