it isnt easy to be hated
January 05, 2004-7:18 pm
i miss you, so badly. ive never wished so hard on anything in my life as this, the hope that somehow youll find a way to come back and we can be together now, maybe tomorrow.
its so hard to walk down the halls knowing that im not walking towards you, that i wont get to see you later, that youre not waiting to ride the bus home with me today or tomorrow or forever. its so hard not having any idea how you are, or what your thinking or how your day is going. its hard to know that youve got a whole new life that doesnt have me in it, a new life that youll get caught up in and youll learn to love. its hard to know that youll have friends i dont know about, people you love that i dont even get to meet, its hard to know that youll have a best friend, someone to talk to and share things with, and theyll get to spend time with you and take it for granted and i dont get that anymore. life is getting fucking unbearable.