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December 19, 2013-11:13 pm

(you were everything i wanted)

why is it that i feel like i need to escape? didn't you ever try to dig to china -- only to find out later that it is not, in fact, the exact opposite point on the earth from where you started? but it is a symbolic opposite. is that why it calls to me?

what do i expect to find?

today, someone was playing "haru haru" on a piano at school, just far enough away that i could not say for sure that i recognized it. every moment of my life feels like that, now

i don't know how to stitch happy moments together into something that will comfort me in all these in-betweens

dont look back and leave
dont find me again and just live on
because i have no regrets from loving you
so only take the good memories
i can bear it in some way
i can stand it in some way
you should be happy if you are like this
day by day it fades away


suicide - October 13, 2016
i wish i was dead - October 13, 2016
i could have written more, but you dont know what to listen for - October 12, 2016
ctrl+heartbeat - October 11, 2016
i dont even care - October 08, 2016


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